Today my family and I went over to my Aunt Corinne's house. It was a great time with family, as it always is. We ate (burgers, hot dogs, watermelon; all that amazing summertime food), we talked, and everyone mooned over the new baby in the family.On the drive home we took the long way, through all the towns and places my parents grew up and spent their teenage years. It was a long day for the little one. She was tired. Tired of sitting in her car seat. She screamed endlessly (besides the five seconds between when she found her thumb) until we finally arrived home. I am thoroughly enjoying the time I'm getting to spend with my ridiculously adorable niece, but if nothing else it makes me realize that I am no where near wanting one of my own. As I see the selflessness my brother and sister-in-law possess, it makes me see my one selfishness. There's a time for everything and I have no doubt that when that time comes I will have what it takes to be a loving selfless mother; but I feel like now is not that time.
Tuesday we are headed to Noah's Ark Waterpark. I have a feeling the baby will stay at home.
Thank you for the selflessness comment, it meant a lot. I wanted you to know that the decision to have a baby doesn't always come at the same time as the selflessness. I am certain that, for me, it did not come until I saw my baby for the first time. Seeing her changed my world in ways I could never put into words. I know that you will be an amazing mother when you are ready!
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